| Location | Nottingham |
| Age | 33 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 28/11/1975 |
| Date of Death | 28/01/2009 |
| Visitors | 9,466 since 12/02/2009 |
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Rebecca was so beautiful that people turned to look at her when they had passed, men and women
alike, and she never noticed. More importantly, she was so beautiful inside. She was kind,
generous, incredibly caring towards animals, particularly if they were in pain. She had lots of
friends, particularly through facebook, and a huge family that adored her. She was funny,
fun-loving, vivacious and effervescent in company. She always took the time to help anyone in
distress, whether over the phone or in person. She hid from people that she had no self-worth and
although she battled and won over depression some 15 years ago, it came back and haunted her. She
kept it from everyone so as to not cause worry but it finally caused her too much pain and despair
and she ended her life. She was my total life. If she was too busy to see me more than once every
couple of months, we spoke or texted at least twice a week and I was fine with that, just knowing
that she was safe in the world. Her Dad and I are broken now and can never be fixed. Our beautiful
girl has left us and we know she would never have wanted to cause this pain, if she had not been so
much in despair and pain.
Rebecca never hurt anyone in her life except herself, but so many people hurt her and that is
something I can never forgive. I see no point in life apart from seeing justice is done and that is
the only thing keeping me going, as you hurt me and mine, I hurt back harder.
So very sorry for your loss.
Loved ones.
Together forever
Never apart
Mabey in distance,
But never at hart.
R.I.P Rebecca.
Birthday memories
I used to love your birthdays as I loved ringing you up singing happy birthday and then texting you every few hours with details of the day you were born and you used to laugh so much.
I know you loved the messages as you saved the last set on your phone and I read it after you had gone, so I know it meant a lot to you.
We are devastated that you have left us but I am glad that I told you I loved you every single time I spoke to you or texted you and I hope you did realise that you were the most important part of our lives. You knew that Bri adored you as well and you always laughed when you told me to tell him hello and that you loved him and he grunted back - you knew what he meant by that grunt and you knew he would have done anything for you, as would we all, but you never asked when it was the most important time, did you?
We will never be able to shake off the guilt that we should have done more for you and we know you wanted independence but you also knew that you were our baby bear and nothing would have bothered us, if it meant you were safe. I also know that sometimes you felt you let us down and you were so wrong, you never did. We were never disappointed in you and you were always the best of us.
I know that when you could not stand the pain any longer you thought we would be okay as we have each other but you forgot that we were a team of three and we feel like one of the wheels have gone from our wagon and we limp along but we will never be the same and eventually, the wagon will collapse because it can't take the strain.
I know that there have been signs that people say are from you and I desperately want to believe this, even though I don't believe in a God as such but more than anything else, I want to believe that your beautiful soul is somewhere happy and free at last and at peace. You were too beautiful inside and out just to vanish into the ether and that would be a true tragedy as there will never be a gentler, kinder soul with a wicked sense of humour and a streak of devilishness at times. I often think that if you had been more selfish, you would have been able to cope better but you hurt yourself or let people hurt you rather than hurting back.
You always said I was the strongest woman you knew but you were wrong - you were - I will never believe you took the coward's way out. It takes courage to end it all as you did but my dearest wish was that it had not happened and I wish your courage had failed you on that fateful morning.
I will be crying an awful lot today, as will a lot of other people, about what we have lost in losing you but also, more importantly, what the world has lost - a beautiful soul that can never be replaced.
Fly free and happy, beautiful angel and know that you carry all our love with you, as you have always done.
xx Mummy bear
xx angel xxx
♥ To Mum With Love ♥
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Look Mum, I’m a butterfly,
I’m the stars in the sky,
I cannot die.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Watch me, now I’m free,
Look and see.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Hey Mum,
I‘m the air that you breathe,
I’m the birds in the trees,
I’m the flowers and the seeds.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Look Mum
I’m deep in your heart,
We’re never apart,
…I’m all around.
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Look Mum, I’m a butterfly,
I’m the stars in the sky,
I cannot die…
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
Ask My Mum How She Is...
My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mum how she is,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night ?
Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mum how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug her from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told!"Ask My Mum How She Is...
My Mum, she tells a lot of lies,
She never did before.
But from now until she dies,
She'll tell a whole lot more.
Ask my Mum how she is
And because she can't explain,
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain.
Ask my Mum how she is,
She'll say "I'm alright."
If that's the truth, then tell me,
why does she cry each night ?
Ask my Mum how she is,
She seems to cope so well.
She didn't have a choice you see,
Nor the strength to yell.
Ask my Mum how she is,
"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth,
Just say your heart is broken.
She'll love me all her life,
I loved her all of mine.
But if you ask her how she is,
She'll lie and say she's fine.
I am Here in Heaven.
I cannot hug her from here.
If she lies to you don't listen,
Hug her and hold her near.
On the day we meet again,
We'll smile and I'll be bold.
I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mum,
With all the lies you told!"
Three Little Words,xx
♥Three Little Words
Forget Me Not,
They Don't Say Much
But They Mean A lot,
Forget You Not
I Never Will,
For In My Heart
I Keep You Still.....♥
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..*..........*... -(’’v’’)
....*......*..... --’’v(’’v’’)
........’*’ ....... -----’’v’’
♥SENT WITH
LOVE AS
ALWAYS XXX
My baby bear
This is the 3rd time I have tried to write this, are you trying to tell me something?
Bri and I had a heart to heart today when he told me he thinks you are gone for good but he is doing Children in Need Karaoke to show his love for you on Friday.
I always worried about you constantly, whether you were happy, lonely etc and tried not to show it, but you knew. My worst nightmare came true in January when the police told me you were dead and I died then. I have only ever been half a person without you and if I truly believed you were gone, I would end it all as I could not stand it. I am only breathing now.
Thank god for the signs, although Bri thinks I imagine them - the blackbird on my birthday in our house, the cats purring when I cry and you stroking my hair.
I cling to these as they are all I have of you, if I really thought you were gone, I would end it all, as I am merely existing without you, just waiting to join you, my precious, precious girl. I wish you had known how much you were loved by so many but how much by us, your family.
Keep safe and happy darling until I can get to you to protect you once again and do a better job, next time.
xx
~♥~ Our Guardian Angels will speak to us
in many different ways ~♥~
~♥~ They'll whisper joy from a bird's song
or wind through a majestic pine ~♥~
~♥~ Or laugh amid the rolling clouds
in a joyous thunder clap ~♥~
~♥~ Or whisper love through a turtle dove
or from a puppy's joyous yap ~♥~
~♥~ So listen closely to every sound
that might come your way ~♥~
~♥~ It could be your angel saying,
"Have a Wonderful Day." ~♥~
~By Shannon L. Story~
Angel whispers
☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆
Last night I had a dream
When an angel I did see,
She took my hand in hers
And whispered "follow me".
★
I flew with her to Heaven
On wings of purest white,
We danced amidst the stars
That sparkled in the night.
★
On the pathway to the moon,
I looked down upon the earth
And suddenly remembered,
The moment of my birth.
★
The angel looked at me,
Her lips curved in a smile,
Knowing I'd recalled,
She'd walked with me each mile.
★
She was my special angel;
God's creation just for me,
To guide me in my life,
And through eternity
★
I didn't want to leave her,
As we stood in heavenly bliss,
But she whispered her goodbye
And departed with a kiss.
★
Awaking in the morning,
Warm sunshine stroked my face
Had I just dreamt of my angel,
Or was it real - that heavenly place?
★
I felt such peace within me,
It seemed so very clear,
Then I swear I heard her whisper,
"You know I'm always here'.
☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆
Marian Jones � 2002
Heaven
If we could visit heaven,ღ♥ღ
Even for a day,ღ♥ღ
Maybe for a moment,ღ♥ღ
The pain would go away,ღ♥ღ
I'd put my arms around you,ღ♥ღ
And whisper words so true,ღ♥ღ
That living life without you,ღ♥ღ
Is the hardest thing to do.ღ♥ღ
No matter how we spend our days,ღ♥ღ
No matter what we do,ღ♥ღ
No morning dawns or evening falls,ღ♥ღ
When we don't think of you xx.ღ♥ღ
Hello From Heaven
◕⊱✣⊰◕
It's me again from Heaven
With a message from above
Feel my spirit all around you
As I sprinkle you with love...
◕⊱✣⊰◕
I have watched you, as your tears flow
I have heard your silent screams
I know you sleep with visions
Of me visiting your dreams...
◕⊱✣⊰◕
I have come and sat beside you
Placed my hands upon your face
Wiped away the many teardrops
I so wish I could erase...
◕⊱✣⊰◕
I have watched you every day now
Seen such pain within your eyes
I just wish that there were some way
I could help you realize...
◕⊱✣⊰◕
I am happy up in Heaven
In this peaceful loving place
Where I will be here waiting
To welcome you with my embrace...
◕⊱✣⊰◕
You will join me here in Heaven
When your time comes you’ll see
Leave your Earthly cares behind you
Travel on to where you’re free...
◕⊱✣⊰◕
I have heard you ask to go now
But there is more for you to do
I promise I'll be waiting
When your time on earth is through ...
◕⊱✣⊰◕
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